Redemption wins....that began to be a daily confession. I don't know why, but God had caused those words to imprint strength in my mind and heart....I was at a really, really dark place...I needed help....or I needed out....one or the other but I couldn't stay in the suffering any more and the more I reached out to God, the further away He seemed...
A song came on the radio, Worn by 10th Ave. North, and the lyrics hit me in a place so deep....."Let me see redemption win, let me know the struggle ends..." with the little strength I had left, I just said, "God, that's what I NEED!" .....then I just laid back down in my bed, where I had been wasting away most of my days....not sleeping, just dying....But then I could feel the prompting of the Holy Spirit to say aloud, "Redemption wins..." and so I did without any understanding the reason or what it was suppose to accomplish...every time something in my body hurt, "Redemption wins...", every time someone attack me, "Redemption wins...", posted it on fb numerous times as a proclamation to the world, "Redemption wins..."
The situations in my life didn't seem to be getting any better...things were still very difficult in every area....so why was God having me go around affirming something I knew nothing about? I have made so many wrong choices, mistakes and faced battles most people couldn't fathom...but I had never seen redemption....How could I? Somebody that is as broken and selfish as me didn't warrant any such gift...
But God....He was very persistent in His Gracious Love, he spoke to my very spirit ....Redemption wins and makes an open show of My Glory when you submit to not only where you are, but to whose you are....It was like a light was instantly turned on for me, illumination filled my heart and mind and I understood....God I am Yours, even if I'm nothing else, I am Yours....and if I am here, in this pit then You are here with me...and You have been here with me all along...and You won't leave me here, there's no glory in that...I can't get myself out, but YOU can....In my mind, that was a powerful revelation...God is with me, and I am His....that's all I need to define me, all I need to deliver me....and ultimately, That is what redemption is.....taking away all the things that wanted to define me as someone less than who I really am and giving me a new name.....HIS
A song came on the radio, Worn by 10th Ave. North, and the lyrics hit me in a place so deep....."Let me see redemption win, let me know the struggle ends..." with the little strength I had left, I just said, "God, that's what I NEED!" .....then I just laid back down in my bed, where I had been wasting away most of my days....not sleeping, just dying....But then I could feel the prompting of the Holy Spirit to say aloud, "Redemption wins..." and so I did without any understanding the reason or what it was suppose to accomplish...every time something in my body hurt, "Redemption wins...", every time someone attack me, "Redemption wins...", posted it on fb numerous times as a proclamation to the world, "Redemption wins..."
The situations in my life didn't seem to be getting any better...things were still very difficult in every area....so why was God having me go around affirming something I knew nothing about? I have made so many wrong choices, mistakes and faced battles most people couldn't fathom...but I had never seen redemption....How could I? Somebody that is as broken and selfish as me didn't warrant any such gift...
But God....He was very persistent in His Gracious Love, he spoke to my very spirit ....Redemption wins and makes an open show of My Glory when you submit to not only where you are, but to whose you are....It was like a light was instantly turned on for me, illumination filled my heart and mind and I understood....God I am Yours, even if I'm nothing else, I am Yours....and if I am here, in this pit then You are here with me...and You have been here with me all along...and You won't leave me here, there's no glory in that...I can't get myself out, but YOU can....In my mind, that was a powerful revelation...God is with me, and I am His....that's all I need to define me, all I need to deliver me....and ultimately, That is what redemption is.....taking away all the things that wanted to define me as someone less than who I really am and giving me a new name.....HIS
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Amen... no matter where we are in life what we do who surrounds us,or what situation comes up. we are blessed,protected,and above all we are loved. god is always there with us from the happiest moments in our lives to the darkest of days. we only have to trust and believe...let go and let God,for he will perfect that wich concerns us and turn it ALL around for our good.
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